The Dark Side
A place to balance myself. I'm not perfect. Sorry if offenced.
2017年2月14日星期二
2015年12月19日星期六
2015年11月18日星期三
Got scared..
Everything is juz like meaningless... When you realized ntg is there for a reason...
It juz there for a coincidence...
Gone means gone...
I juz can angry at myself for all the mistake I have done!
I'm not missing you...
Juz your name your face your things keep spinning in the head...
No one is worth for me to do that...
it reached a point until I scared...
I dun want to use another one to replace you again... You are not replaceable...
Hahaha... Life know that we juz went different ways... It's in parallel...
You hate me... Not only you... Everyone do...
Because I juz like to do the things make pepo hates me...
So that I won't miss them...
They won't miss me...
Even myself in the same position...
Because only I know what am I doing...
How stupid am I...
How idiot am I...
Mr K, this story alr into a coffin...
Juz why I still standing beside the story...
Ntg allowed.. Other than forget...
I hate you... I really hate you...
Why you want to train me as an adult but not treating me well as a child...
Hahaha... Let me give myself an answer...
Because I not deserve for it...
Your shadow will be there forever...
Continue like current... We are not friends... We are ntg... That's the things you want... That's the things that everyone want...
Negative?! Lolz... It's a truth to wake myself up from dream...
Cry?! No one allowed me to cry...
Sorry for that day...
Sorry for everything...
Sorry for the disturbance...
2015年11月1日星期日
你
2015年10月25日星期日
There are too many things I want to show out to you...
How is my life changed when the time you not here...
But all this will burst since that day.. It's because of him... This is the fact that I have to admit...
Until today.. The most scared is not I continue blaming myself how stupid am I to continue with you...
It's I hope he still there someday for me...
I'm too good for him... But how about you...
Sometimes I really think... I really reserved for you to hurt and spend...
Really...
I dunno who I should blame...
I really can't put him aside...
He is still the one for me deep in heart now...
Even he is going more deep than before...
For you... I'm enjoying the real face of a pepo...
I think I should stop everything from you...
But some wonder there killed me...
It's hurt... From him...
But the hate is from you...
I think I m not deserved anything...
I deserved to be stay alone...
Maybe these day juz not really used to the lone life...
Sorry...
2015年10月9日星期五
Can I cry?!
Do I want to cry?!
Do I need to cry?!
I dunno...
You mean too much for me...
You mean ntg for me...
This term seem to be go for BS more suitable... Rite?!
Hmmmmm...
At least I'm comfort with everything when you around...
Not need to have more talking...but juz comfort...
I dunno what life has indicate me to....
I get so frustrated to what has been happening within this two months...
But at least I saw the changes there...
But I can't enjoy the changes with you anymore...
Thanks for the long way...
Hahahaha...
Sometimes I juz hope I got a car bang...
Everything stopped in that moment...
Everything juz gone to memory...
That's enough for me...
That's the only way I can forgive myself...
For this one year and half...
It's life...
Learned...
Not to be hard...but a long way...
2015年9月16日星期三
What am I now?!
Idk...
I juz know everyone is leaving...
And I'm sleepy at this moments...
I know most likely later I will awake same like usual...
The heart is calling the brain...
Because of you again...
I shouldn't think about you...
When there is no hope...
When there is juz left awkward...
But it's ridiculous...
Because I made the awkward situation for myself...
Actually I should have know before...
I should trust a guy that I knew for four years... But shouldn't trust his three days words...
The dream has been gone...
He juz a reminder that send by God...
Remind me it's time to awake...
Remind me that something is wrong somewhere...
Remind me that I need to change when I still have time...
Remind me that I love him...
No way to blame anyone...
Same things to the decision that made one year half ago...
No way to blame anyone...
My decision...
But now... Me is back... But everything... everyone... Time has been past...
You are ritez... I'm too young...
I knew that...
It's impossible...
At least I'm sure it's not me...
Hahaha... I'm ntg..
You said, I'm in a way too good...
Hmmmm... Actually I did ntg for you...
Other than trouble... Maybe... Hahaha... Or problems... I will happy if you tell me I did joke for you all the time..
Sorry my brain still ruining...
Actually I have no qualified to say anything to you...
I deserved to be alone...